I like a lot of different music, but rap/hip hop will always be that first love. With any relationship, you have your highs and lows, but for a good chunk of 2012 I’ve felt myself growing distant. Maybe things were a little stale and for the most part, it seemed like I was getting too old for it — at least with a lot of the stuff that’s out there. I think it all comes down to needing someone/something that we can grow with and not apart from.
I had an earlier post talking about my excitement for albums that were coming out in September and October, so now that we’re on the tail end of that, I can say that it’s had a really positive effect on my own music and motivation (though my pockets are hurtin’ bad from buying so many albums lately! Lol).
I’ve been able to finish verses that I’ve been stuck on for weeks, or even months, prior. Before I even change out of my work clothes when I come home at night, I’m already listening to instrumentals and writing. It’s been awhile since I’ve had this spark in me, so I’m going to ride it out to the fullest. All I can say is that it feels really good to be so excited and passionate about music again!
I thought I Used to Love H.E.R., but it looks like I still do.
Word up, son.
"Rap and Hip-Hop isn't meaningful or complex!"
- 2Pac: And since we all came from a woman, got our name from a woman and our game from a woman, I wonder why we take from our women. Why we rape our women, do we hate our women? I think it's time to kill for our women, time to heal our women, be real to our women. And if we don't we'll have a race of babies that will hate the ladies that make the babies. And since a man can't make one, he has no right to tell a woman when and where to create one.
- Jay-Z: Silly rappers, because we got a couple Porsches, MTV stopped by to film our fortresses. We forget the unfortunate. Sure I ponied up a mill, but I didn't give my time. So in reality I didn't give a dime, or a damn. I just put my monies in the hands of the same people that left my people stranded. Nothin' but a bandit, left them folks abandoned. Damn, that money that we gave was just a band-aid, can't say we better off than we was before.
- Kanye West: Is it genocide? 'Cause I can still hear his momma cry, know the family traumatized. Shots left holes in his face, 'bout piranha-size. The old pastor closed the cold casket, and said the church ain’t got enough room for all the tombs. It’s a war going on outside we ain’t safe from, I feel the pain in my city wherever I go. 314 soldiers died in Iraq, 509 died in Chicago.
- Mos Def: When the average minimum wage is $5.15, you best believe you gotta find a new grind to get cream. The white unemployment rate, is nearly more than triple for black so frontliners got they gun in your back. Bubblin crack, jewel theft and robbery to combat poverty and end up in the global jail economy. Stiffer stipulations attached to each sentence. Budget cutbacks but increased police presence. And even if you get out of prison still livin join the other five million under state supervision. This is business, no faces just lines and statistics from your phone, your zip code, to S-S-I digits. The system break man child and women into figures. Two columns for who is, and who ain't niggaz. Numbers is hardly real and they never have feelings but you push too hard, even numbers got limits. Why did one straw break the camel's back? Here's the secret: the million other straws underneath it - it's all mathematics
- Lupe Fiasco: I really think the war on terror is a bunch of bullshit. Just a poor excuse for you to use up all your bullets. How much money does it take to really make a full clip. 9/11 building 7 did they really pull it. And a bunch of other cover ups. Your childs future was the first to go with budget cuts. If you think that hurts then, wait here comes the uppercut. The school was garbage in the first place, thats on the up and up. Keep you at the bottom but tease you with the uppercrust. You get it then they move you so you never keeping up enough. If you turn on TV all you see’s a bunch of “what the fucks”. Dude is dating so and so blabbering bout such and such. And that aint Jersey Shore, homie thats the news. And these the same people that supposed to be telling us the truth. Limbaugh is a racist, Glenn Beck is a racist. Gaza strip was getting bombed, Obama didn’t say shit. Thats why I aint vote for him, next one either. I’ma part of the problem, my problem is I’m peaceful. And I believe in the people.
Last night I finally got to see one of my favorite MCs, Brother Ali, perform live. After seeing him and the Macklemore video that came out a few days ago, I feel rejuvenated and inspired to keep going with this music. Whether or not I “make it” is irrelevant to me anymore. What matters to me is that I keep doing what I love and even if it connects with only a small amount of folks then I’ve made a difference.
I’ve talked to a few people about this whole “rapping thing” and have expressed that hip hop is generally a youth culture. I think there’s a shorter shelf life when it comes to rappers than say, singers or other musicians. Do I really want to be that 40 year old underground rapper still looking for his big break? After hearing that, one of my friends said, “Yeah, but you’re not 40 yet.” She made a great point that still sticks with me almost a year later.
F**k all that age insecurity crap. lol. I’ma keep doing what I do. I’m definitely looking forward to tonight’s recording session for the album!
Cup of coffee…
It’s 12:30am and I should be sleeping before work tomorrow, but I’ve just got too much on my mind (see my previous posts from tonight). A cup of coffee isn’t the best idea right now but I need to stay up and finish writing this song.
Let’s do this…